GOODBYE LOVE,I HOPE YOU'RE GONE FOR GOOD.I'LL BE HERE, ENDLESSLY WAITING FOR YOUR CALL.SO HERE I GO AGAIN,GOODBYE LOVE.

so hunn's gone)': i sent him off at around midnight.fuck luhhh.jen came with me too.i just had to go over to her place.i'm effing depressed,i'm so not going for camp next week.and i wont be going out these few days.i'm uber sorry elaine): not yet i suppose,so i'll just be at home.he said that he'll ring me when he arrives,so i'm still waiting.ahhhh,god help me.i effing miss him.i've never stayed at jen's house and spend my night at holland without him)': FUCK MANN.why does it take so long for the plain to land!so many people are telling me to relax.which i'm trying to.i mean its a daily basis thing to spend my day at his place and getting his smses when he's only in the kitchen): i dont think i can even step into holland anymore,or lido,or ps,or town.and my effing house)': this is so effing wrong.this isnt supposed to happen,and yet it did.i didnt sleep last night.and i have to get jen absolut.i finished hers,and my cash's all gone.i spent on 3 boxes of puffs.papa,i'm effing sorry)': till the next time.






;how am i ever going to get rid of these blues.